love sucks

I can’t, I cant let him go. I’m not ready to not have him. I’m not ready to not be able to text him goodmorning babe or call him or go to his house just to watch movies. I’m not ready to not have him make me grilled cheese’s bc all he has at his house is meat, or when his friends call and say “are you with bridget? ard I’ll hit you up later” I’m not ready to not be able to text him all day everyday, I don’t know if I’m in love with him but what I feel for him is something special, am I ready to let that go? no. do I need to? yes. if he calls me will I answer, yeah most likely. I would do absolutely anything for this boy bc that’s just the type of person I am. but I need to stop letting him do whatever he wants and always be there. you get second chances but he’s on his 30th strike, and now it’s time for him to be out 💔